Don't Play the Victim

Spiritual Lessons 

Don't Play the Victim 

I really didn't feel like sharing this. Because it's rather humbling. But I also know that it might help others.

I recently became aware how I have allowed myself to play the victim. I have allowed myself to feel scared and hurt. I allowed it to push me into a place of insecurity. Lies have felt legitimate, and I have done so little to refuse them.

There is nothing humble about removing myself from confidence to fear. I have been my own worst abuser. It is sinful to remain in any sort of abusive relationship, but here I sat. Being a willing victim is a sin. It's collaboration with the abuser and a condoning of the abuse. Distress does not make me a damsel. It has made me a victim.

Claiming the place of “unworthy”, is choosing to be in league with the enemy. It's a lie, and Satan is the father of lies. And this is his method of taking me out of the battle. How dare I allow him to succeed?

I have struggled with manipulators, all my life. I've learned that, “giving in”, not standing up for myself, saying “yes”, when I really should say “no” – all of that behavior is weak and wrong. The behavior of a victim. Recently, I have been learning how to be a lion. To stand boldly to authorities who have manipulated and abused in my life. But I have refused to fight for my own mind and soul.

Of course the struggle is very real. I do hurt. I do battle with my worth. But the reality of the battle is no excuse for giving in. I've determined it's time to stop mourning over my hurts and start accepting the Truth. I must recognize that when I start to shift in my mind and feel hurt and uncertain – that I'm about to flee over to the enemy camp. To exchange Jesus' banner of love for Satan's dark banner of lies. The Devil doesn't own me. I'm a child of God. And I belong to Jonah.

It is a sin to rename Satan's banner and covering as anything else (ie: humility, righteousness, truth...). It is traitorous of me to accept Satan's banner.

Ultimately, it is selfish to play the victim. And I am the only one to blame for shackling my mind. Satan has no power of me. I'm going to stand up to my own flesh, and to Satan. He cannot devour me this time. I know this is going to be hard. I know there will still be times where I feel cornered. I know I will be attacked. I know I will still cry. I will still hurt. But I'm going to be a lion.

And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I've been a victim. I'm sorry for sinning. And I'm sorry it has affected people I love. I repent. I am determined to believe truth. 

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The Church is Blood Guilty

The Church is 

Blood Guilty 

Christians are blood guilty.

Abortion is the result of evil self-serving men. Which includes the abortionists, the mothers of these dead children and the Church.

A duty to rescue is a concept in tort law, where a party can be held liable for failing to come to the rescue of another party in peril.

Those who fund, perform, ignore or aid in killing little children, are guilty. That pretty much covers most people. Including Christians. We are doubly responsible because we claim the Creator God to be our authority. And yet we stand by while children, created in His image, are butchered mercilessly. And He will hold us liable for failing to come to the rescue of those he has commanded us to save. (James 1:27; Proverbs 31:8-9).

We have approached 220+ churches in the state of Idaho. All we have asked is that they consider signing the petition to abolish human abortion in their state. We have had only 5 churches respond positively. Most of the Pastors refused for us to even approach the congregation about the petition.

Why?

Some Pastors actually think pre-born human beings are not as valuable as living ones. They have accepted their culture's teaching of ageism and openly admit such wickedness.

Others are afraid of man. They realize that many women have had abortions...women in their congregation. And they are afraid to take a bold stance on murder.

And then almost all of these men have a false view of authority. They believe that their congregation shouldn't be allowed the opportunity of judging the petition for themselves, because they, as Pastor, know best. Time and time again we've been treated harshly, unjustly, and even slandered. All because we took a petition to their doorstep.

Recently I asked a local pastor if he might be interested in signing the petition and having it circulated amongst his congregation. He said he'd think about it and read it. I approached him again and he said he thought he'd shy away from it because he wasn't sure it was a ministry that included saving souls. I sent him an email with some more info on the petition and explained how the petition was one tiny way we might love our neighbor and obey God in saving the needy. When weeks went by without a response, I stopped by the church to ask if he had a chance to read my email. I'd be happy to discuss any details he wasn't sure about.

He became seriously angry, and accused me of harassing him, and made it very clear that if I showed up with the petition he would call the police. When I asked him why he was so adamantly against the petition he refused to answer and said he didn't have to tell me why, because, after all, he is the Pastor and he said no. He further went on to admonish me how I was to answer him, and then I was harshly told to leave immediately.

This, unfortunately, is common behavior.


Why?

Pastors have been set up to fail. They are taught and treated like mini-gods and blindly followed by “laymen”. The conventional Church promotes tyranny. And the Christian conforms to such tradition.

This is as much the Pastor's fault as it is the congregation that follows him. Christians have become obsessed with their personal spirituality, and submission to their Pastor.

Faith no longer works, it is now an experience – a focus on self.

Conformity has become confused with unity. And confrontation has become a sin. Thinking for ones self is divisive and traditions are somehow recognized as the Word of God.

This “experience religion” coupled with the idolatrous surrender to false pastoral authority has bred apathy. It has led us to disobedience to God, and ultimately blood guilt. We have refused to oppose evil. We tolerate sin. We fail to be Christian. This ungodly submission is sin. Our inaction is sin. Dangerous. It leads people astray. And our conformity to tyranny (whether it be our Pastor who says we cannot abolish human abortion, or to our government who says it is legal to murder) is wicked! We will be held accountable. We must repent. We must obey God rather than men.


Unchain your mind. And wash your hands of blood.



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